Río Caura, day 4 – moving up the river
You know the feeling of being placed in a situation and suddenly thinking you don’t belong there? That feeling gets to me on occations – sometimes when I am at a lecture in school or eating dinner with old friends, but most often it occurs in places where I feel uncomfortable. Like… late night at a party, where everyone else seems to know everyone except me.
Then my mind somehow zooms out and I look at the situation from outside while a loud voice insistently screams… “WHAT THE F… ARE YOU DOING DOWN THERE?”
I had this feeling today.
It is not because it hasn’t been amazing. Finally we were setting off on Río Caura, the sun had almost entirely burned away the morning clouds and the wide river looked impressive surrounded by the thick rainforest. I was sitting there in the boat – smiling – with Jonás family members just behind me.
To my left I had the English speaking guide Gregorious, who from time to time pointed to huge turtles climbing on a rock or sea lions sticking their head up from underneath the water. I front of me was my two tourist companions; a middle aged, upper class couple from Caracas – the capital of Venezuela.
They were actually who triggered my “not belonging here” –feeling.
The first time in a situation where I looked at the Venezuelan couple sitting in their comfortable camping chairs (brought from Caracas to the canoe), with their hands in a pack of salted chips provided by our family hosts behind. “ARRRGH… WHAT IS THIS?” And I saw myself eating of the chips too.
The second situation occurred in one of the riverside Indian villages we visited along the way. The couple were taking pictures and I (with my very white skin) felt more and more like the tourist I am; Inappropriately placed in the middle of strange looking locals speaking an ancient native language and walking around almost undressed.
“And it’s amazing some people actually live like this, right”, Caracas man Francisco said to me and looked back at the village children continuing in a dreamy voice; “Simply unbelievable”